history

Those who remember the past are condemned to make the opposite mistakes."
-Santayana

Why does his maxim sounds so applicable to me? I will remember the opposite mistakes I made in the months that flew by so as to not commit them again..

2 weeks has flown past with no contact with her...
Its really over...?
Rejected the opportunity to attend a gd friend's surprise b'day celebration in early nov. becos I don't want to see her..right decision?
Yet,I'm still thinking about what christmas present to buy for her..stupid. :0
Sighz..bouts of missing her like that in intervals like this must stop soon..
Getting tired...really tired..

"Religion is the opiate of the masses"
- Marx

Have been listening to christian songs frequently these days..its weird that these songs can actually provide me with peace..sighz..so tempted to buy a bible..I can't find mine(a gift from my ex) :(...Maybe at this vulnerable stage..one do need some supernatural help...I'm not a christian..yet in the past..I have turned to my bible for help..always said the bible is a good self-help book..doubting whether it is really just a self help book..or is God reaching out to me, offering words of comfort where I really need it..sighz..

Its 5am..the break of dawn will be approaching soon..yet..my mind is filled with her words-'The darkening sky is so beautiful', her describing the sunset, which my reply was 'Yah,its a pity that sunsets are beautiful yet short'..

The sun has set and the darkness creeps in,a nite with no moon,a dead city,a troubled soul awaiting painfully for the break of dawn again..