Proud~

I'm so proud of myself..at 5am..I just completed 12 hours worth of revision for the 30percent ICA test at 12 noon,though I have to wake up at 8.30 for my 11am tutorial(n skipping the ipsea lecture at 8am..darn,its for the better good,i need my sleep to tackle the test), I feel that finally my old self is coming back..this revision is not that last minute somemore, I don't feel that unprepared as compared to previous essays/tests this sem with her in my life...I'm so relieved that I can actually sit myself down in my room n do what I do best..mug with vigour,mug with pride,mug with purpose, I so want to be a chao mugger again..yay..no matter how the test turn out..at least I can be accountable to myself n tell myself, yanwei, u tried your best, u will do fine..you might even score(fingers crossed,not that confident though.)

I know deep down, I still miss her,maybe the feeling will come back tmr after the test or during the weekend..but I'm so glad that my quest for my first class honours,no matter how hard it seems n whether I can get it in the end, and my desire to excel in my academic endeavour kept me going again...so glad..