actually

Its simple, actually.
No fuss, no complications.
Just simplicity, that's all.

Its nothing, actually.
Absence, void, emptiness.
Just nothingness, that's all.

Its history, actually.
Past tense, memories.
Just history, that's all.

Its melancholy, actually.
Irrational, fleeting.
Just melancholy, that's all.

my ps clique

I felt so lost on my first day of school. The usual faces at the dungeon were no longer there and I felt the loss of my ps clique- Heyi, Hong, Meiling and Zheyuan. School without them just doesn't seem to be school anymore. So lost, that I sms-ed Meiling and Hong about it. I did most of my projects in nus with them, ate lunch with them, chilling out in the library, rushing midterm papers throughout the nite together, going out pubbing/pool/studying until wee hours into the morning or even morning with them. Haiz, all I needed in political science was just them. Hong's last semester in nus le... seeing him on thursday brought back so much comfort, yes, I missed my first lesson in nus becos he overslept, but still, just seeing him in this setting cheers me up. Going to his house to play with Mocha made my day even better. We plan to take the same tutorials for the only two modules we have together, me sacrificing my only free day and he taking a 10am lesson at a huge risk because we know that this is probably the last semester in our life that we study together. I'm really thankful to have him for this semester before I 'go solo' next semester.

Going solo is of course too drastic to describe it, I still have friends whom I knew for quite some time to hang out with- Roy and the new media gang to talk cock with, Peishan(going for sep this sem), Wanrong, Fatma, Nabilla,Min Li, Joan, Zhixiang are amongst the friends I have known for quite a while that I feel at ease with to study together. And also my PA internmates- Daniel, Yishu, Hock Sing and Ben whom I clicked so well during my internship. Even though this is only the first week of school, I also know quite a few new friends le...

But at the end of the day, I guess, I will still miss my PS clique and when Hong finally graduates this sem, I will feel that school as a Political Science Major has more or less ended in a metaphorical sense for me too. Oh well, partings are just part and parcel of life, no longer coursemates but definitely friends for life. :)

a fan's agony

Its 5am. Manchester United drew again. 2 draws in 2 matches. 4 points off the top of the table already. I can feel my heart wrenching with every passing minute of the matches. My mood changes from confidence to optimism to nervous-ness to despair and finally resignation. With a Manchester derby in the weekend, I start to wonder, can life get even more painful for a Red Devils fan? Nonsense, my heart tells me, 'Of course, we are going to win that game and many many games from now on, we are after all Manchester United.'

The title race is still not over, bleahz. I shall wear my favorite Manchester United t-shirt later for classes.

And at the end of the season, I shall sing to the tune of ' We are the Champions, We are the Champions of England...' and ' Glory Glory, Man United, Glory Glory, Man United, Glory Glory, Man United, and the Reds go marching on...'

beautiful song

Beautiful. Lailin, when I read about your blog post regarding your reaction towards my elaboration of how crazy this world is, I seriously have no reply. Yes, I painted a very bleak picture of the world and 'ignorance is still bliss' for the bulk of the masses. Let this video be my answer and also an attempt to add some colour to the bleak picture. As long as there's still humans, there will always be hope.