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Saturday, November 29, 2008

魏如昀, Queen



*Disclaimer: The author has tried his best not to sound like a teenager in this blog post, to no avail.

Not since Avril Lavigne have I gone gaga over a female singer.
But 魏如昀, Queen, she's just so special.
I finally managed to buy her new cd, 傻 today.
The last piece in the cd shop too!
How lucky! :)
She wrote 8 out of 10 songs in the cd too!
魏如昀, you are my Queen! :)



Is she hot or what? She's so close to perfection! :)

Friday, November 28, 2008

random

A deficit of confidence-
In my potential
In my capabilities
In my rational thoughts
In my dreams
In human nature
In this crazy world

Dreams-
Of achieving perfection
Of feeling contented
Of finding 'her'
Of seeing the world
Of attaining my goals
Of following my heart

Loves-
Driving at that moment when the sun sets
Having my flawed assumptions debunked
Talking to brillant people
Pursuing my coveted goals in life
Fulfilling my material desires
Simple acts of kindness

Hates-
Getting so lost in the wilderness
Racist bigots and arrogant fools
The monotony of routine
Addictions that don't go away
Needing to settle for second best
Failing in your forte

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

results

Hong got A+, A, B+ for his three modules in his first trimester in NTU-RSIS!!

yay, dude, I'm so proud of you! :)

Sometimes, the most heartwarming form of happiness is to witness your friends achieve something they have worked hard for.

That sense of unbridled joy, arising more out of hope than expectations is something that I cannot really put into words.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Thank you, Prof Alan Chong

Meeting up with Prof Alan Chong on friday brought back lots of memories of my undergraduate years in political science.

The young academically-inclined ah beng who seldom missed any of his lessons, but an anomaly where good students should look their part.

The overly-eager student who loves to shoot questions at presentations and think that the world is his oyster and the overly-emotional presenter who can get too serious over a class presentation.

That idealism and the craving for knowledge, where getting lost in that intellectual maze is actually seen as fun and challenging.

Prof Alan Chong, Thanks for the advices on friday. The three words which you peppered in your lectures, 'think about it' will be a mantra that I hold dearly to. And, thanks again for making me feel that the world is my oyster. Idealism should not be overwhelmed by the realities of life. And, I am just too young to be stuck in the rat race.

I am still a dreamer. :)

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Avenue Q

Avenue Q was fantastic. Haven't seen such a good play since Sound of Music. I think I am falling in love with musicals. Out of the varied repertoire of songs, I felt the strongest sense of connection with this song-




There's A Fine Fine Line

Kate Monster:
There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

photo



Its rare to see photos on my blog, but I kinda like this photo taken at Brewerkz on Louanne's birthday before adjourning to Velvet. Thanks Hong for tagging the photo to me on Facebook. This is another instance where I will have a strong desire to join Facebook. Maybe I will.....sometime in future. (just to stay in contact with my friends and get access to all the other photos of me in my friends' facebook accounts, ahh, the pervasive influence of new media...)

Oh btw, the pretty girl in the picture is Louann and the guy is Hong whom I have mentioned quite a bit on this blog.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

senseless

Have you ever wonder whether you have reached your potential?

Have you ever doubted yourself?

Maybe, just maybe you are just not good enough.

Or maybe you lost that desire to fight.

Or you get lost in that maze.

Argh, this is my forte.

Prove it.

Prove it to yourself that you can do it.

Prove it man, Prove it.

Nothing can tear you down.

Just as long as you put in your best.

So, put in your best, dude.

What happened to that fire?

Extinguished by your past failures?

Why are you always so harsh on yourself?

Have you given up on your dreams?

What am I doing?

That sense of defeat is unwarranted.

Where is the comfort zone?

Why ain't the words flowing?

What happened?





I will fight on.
I will not give up.
I will excel.
My dreams will come true.
My potential will not go unrealized.
I will succeed.
I will.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

JBJ

You know someone matters when you are immediately saddened by his death.
He's an icon, a fighter who doesn't know the meaning of giving up.
The dogged refusal to conform to the system,
The passion, vigour and tireless energy level,
Leaving an indelible mark in the history books.

You will not be forgotten.

Thanks for everything.

Rest In Peace.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Jordan



Jordan, you live on forever! An inspiration to all out there! A legend indeed!

Thanks Andrew for sharing this video!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

a short update

3 months into work.
A farmer on an elitist scheme?
Nah, I don't feel that way anymore.
Slowly, I'm getting used to working and mingling with the most brillant minds around.
But, yes, still very much overwhelmed by the sheer challenges of my work.
Exciting times, tough challenges and still looking to carve out a niche and excel.
I will reach the top one day, I will.

About 1 month into driving.
The flexibility, the sheer convenience of it all.
That sense of achievement where I can call this car, mine.
That adrenaline rush.
And of course, the feeling that I'm financially independent.
It does feel good.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

today

Happy Birthday, stranger! :)

Friday, August 01, 2008

oxymoron

Happy. You know, that smile of satisfaction from work, the end of a long week and the start of a good friday of chilling and a short but sweet weekend to rest. And that familiar melodramatic feel swoops in, to temper my joyous mood, that long lost feeling of missing someone, that stranger who ceases to exist in my life anymore.I'm just happy that I have people around me to keep me sane and people around me who knows me to bits.

I know I'm crazy. But, after that brief melodramatic feeling, the knowledge that I'm still in control, that the fleeting feeling will probably pass by after that sensitive date, everything seems to be well again.

I'm fine. The drinking session later will sober me up further. For I'm enjoying a yuppie's life. And putting the past behind me, really soon...(sneak attacks like this occur once in a blue moon, and may just increase in frequency for that few more days.)

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

reality

A thousand and one things on my mind.
My brain is overworked and over-used.
Yet, my heart seems to dictate my actions and my feelings.
The rational considerations just do not stand up to scrutiny.

Refusing to acknowledge the hurt and pain experienced in the past.
Unwilling to concede that the dream has ended.
Reveling in the idea of limitless possibilities.
Yet, fearing the consequences of failure and defeat.

Ahh, the myriad of issues.
The past, the present and the future.
Unknowns, that intriguing element.
Idealism, the undying contradiction in this reluctant realist.

Monday, June 30, 2008

survey

Since Charles is so interested in my answers and i being the only unfortunate soul to have been tagged by him to do this questionaire(indirectly or not), I shall be nice and do it....

THE RULES: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.


At what age do you wish to marry?
33, when I have enough fun as a yuppie.


What's your favourite pet?
Dogs will be nice. Especially a dog like Mocha(Hong's dog)who turns round and round and round and round and round.......



-Cutest dog alive ever

Have you ever shoplifted?
Yup, when I was in primary school. The usual lor-rubbers, sweets.(But occasionally lah)

What country do you wish to go to right now?
England(Manchester area)- Old Trafford is the dream destination. But, probably I will make a trip to Japan first. Heard so much abt. it....

What are your favourite movies?
NAZI-theme movies(Downfall, Rise of evil, NAPOLA), PS.I Love You, Love Actually, Lord of the Rings....etc etc etc

When you encounter a sad moment, what do you do?
To be alone, think through it over a smoke or two and then talk to close friends about it.

If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Go study for a PHD.

What can you say about death?
End of a journey. I want to not exist in the form of soul when I die. Hopefully, everything ends with death.

What's your favourite holiday?
When you don't have any outstanding work to clear.


How do you cope with boredom?
Find something interesting to do lor, dots. Drinking? Movies? Reading? A hundred and one things to do.

Do you wanna go to heaven?
No. I believe it will be boring. But if I have to make a choice between heaven and hell, heaven of course is the logical choice.

Do you love designers' bags?
Yes, they are designers' bags for a reason.(But, I'm not infatuated of cos.)

If you have one wish, what would you wish for?
World peace.(I hate it when world peace can never ever be achieved by limited homo sapiens like you and me.)

Do you smoke on a regular basis?
Yes. I do. Go on, judge me, I don't care.

Do you believe that dreams do come true?
I'm a realist. But, yes, dreams can come true.

What's your favorite colors?
Black.

What's your favorite ice cream flavors?
Green tea.

What are the first 5 things you do after waking up?
1. look at handphone
2. put on glasses
3. smoke.
4. brush teeth
5. cleanse face

What do you do during rainy days?
I stay indoors.

What's your favorite fairytale?
Cinderella.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

little things

Sometimes, little things can perk your life up and this is one instance-

Meiling sms-ing me that she is going to attend commencement in july. :)
Now that Hong can't make it for commencement in july, this is indeed the best news ever. Hong, I expect you to turn up though as I will turn up for your graduation as a Masters student in RSIS.(which is another piece of good news, Hong is going to terrorize RSIS. pun intended-in case any organization is monitoring this website,argh, i'm getting sooo paranoid. lol)

Saturday, May 31, 2008

certainty

All the uncertainties are over.

My class of honours is confirmed. A 2nd Upper class of honours. No more needless battles. No more half-hearted attempts. No more.

A job. A job that I think I can excel in. A job that pays me so well that I can really enjoy a yuppies' life. A job that I am looking forward to.

At peace. I know what I want and I have the plans in place. Everything seems to just fit. I have no need for a ranting space anymore. That space which some has used to judge me as emo and weak(even). But, instead of declaring the death of this blog, I shall attempt to give it a rebirth- 'Reflections'.

Now, I am just going to enjoy the remaining days of my holiday before I start work and begin my transition to a yuppies' life! Yes, i'm going to be a YUPPIE, not a rat(like some of you are saying, lol).

ps. that doesn't mean I won't use this space to rant anymore. :p

Thursday, May 22, 2008

CHAMPIONS


WE WON! WE WON!!! WE WON!!!!! LOL!!! We did the DOUBLE! We are the Champions of England and Europe!!! OMG, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL!


Words don't do justice to the feelings felt. Euphoria. Tears streaming down my cheeks when Edwin saved the penalty from Anelka. Despair, acute painful despair struck when Ronaldo, our best player for the season missed his penalty. Thoughts of 'Its just not meant to be' seeped into the mind. Then up stepped John Terry, the captain of Chelsea, the leader, the one epitomizing Chelsea(which i think is crap, anyway, lol) and he slipped and MISSED!!! AND omg, what a miss! what a slip! Instantly, every man u fans' hearts were filled with hope again. Sorry, we can't sympathize with you. We just wanted you to miss and you did! Lalalala.

Tears of joys. Our third Champions league trophy in history! 9 years since that magical Champions league final in 1999. We thought nothing can beat or even rival that win. That win which we won by scoring 2 goals in 3 mins of extra time, that goal which brought us Sir Alex first Champions league trophy!! Yes! Yes! Yes! 3 European Champions League win and 17 league titles!! We are on our way to becoming the most successful team in England!

Glory Glory Man United! Glory Glory Man United! and the Reds go marching on!!!!

Monday, May 19, 2008

25.

25. Mid 20s. A quarter century old.

I can no longer claim to be in my early 20s. 25 seems to be the start of another chapter in life. Similiar to 18, where national service beckons and 21, where university life begins. Looking back at the chapter that just closed, I managed a faint smile of satisfaction. It was a rollercoaster ride (however abused this term is)-

Familial wise- my dad's cancer(recovered le) and bike accident took the cake. My close uncle's death and my female cousin's marital problems added on to the anguish felt. Importantly, the ripples did not cause me to break down but actually toughen me up(especially with two of the events happening in the midst of my exams, it was really a test of how I would react in times of adversity-ok, andrew, will cut down on the melodramatic effect. haha)

Friends wise- Knowing Hong, Meiling, Zheyuan and Heyi was the best thing that happened in my varsity life. The trio's graduation a year ago and the inevitable separation from Hong in terms of modules taking has rendered my honours year less exciting than the previous three years. Perhaps, that softened the impact of my graduation and leaving this santuary of school. Of course, other friends such as Nabilla, Fatma, Wanrong, Peishan, Min Li and Yixian also added on to life in the rather protective environment of school. I can go on naming the friends that contributed in their own way to this chapter of my life but this ain't exactly a thank you speech blog entry. :p

School wise- I didn't get my first class honours. A 2nd Upper(baring a major disaster) is still a scant consolation. But oh well, nonetheless, the decision to major in political science instead of history was the hardest decision ever in my academic life. For history was what I have always deemed as my first love, my forte. Yet, political science had all the glam to it. LOL, of cos I aint that himbo. A combination of factors, good professors taking the exposure modules, the allures of international relations and current affairs lured me in. Along the way, I had my fingers burned here n there by different profs. Sometimes, I do think that I don't deserve the grade that some of my profs awarded me. Not a true reflection of my brillance and hard work. :p But overall, I am just thankful for the brillance of my profs who was able to open up my mind sufficiently and expose me to so much knowledge that I realize what I know is so little. This is not the end though, for I will definitely return to school(probably not nus) for my masters.

Personal growth wise- A sprinkling of ccas in nus, mentorship with mcys feedback unit, internships with mindef nexus and people's association-woodlands CO has allowed my CV to be presentable. The testimonials and the generous assistance rendered by my mentor who is willing to be my referee in my job applications allows me to 'sell' myself to my prospective employers. More importantly is not the CV or even the 'selling', but that added perspective which these experiences has imbued me with. I had a lot of good mentors too who was willing to guide me- an undergraduate who's obviously booksmart but not really 'street-smart'(IN THE PAST, not now), who's patient with me and who's willing to go beyond their duty to actually share life lessons with me. Mr Toh, Mr Ho, Victor(don't know whether you will read this blog entry :p) and Ms Sherlene Tan, it has really been a blessing to be able to learn from all of you. Thanks. :)

Relationships/Emotions wise- I was a boy. Besides the occasional, harmless crushes, I had one of my worst fall into that emotional abyss. But, somehow, through that experience, I dare say, I am no longer a boy but a man. LOL, at 25, I don't think anyone will begrudge me for saying that. Yes, age does not represent emotional maturity but the ardous process of finding yourself after you lost it sure brought about emotional growth.

So, a brief recap of that last chapter of life which is closing(with the release of results at the end of may and graduation ceremony in july), I look forward to the opening of the next chapter in life which I have loosely demacarte into the period of 25-30 and given the nice name of-the YUPPIES life. woooooo...lol.

Plans- I have made so many plans for the future that it seems that I am not leaving much room to surprises (yes, Clausewitz, I am not disagreeing with your centrality of the element of chance which can override everything). In this rather uncertain times, I feel at peace actually. I have plan A, plan B, contingency plans, etc, etc. I never thought I am such a planner. :p More or less, I am going to be a civil/public servant who may be going for a masters either during this chapter or in the beginning of my next chapter in life. Trying my best to get a job related to international relations is the job scope of my preferred career and I may still try for MFA in the foreseeable future(especially if I don't get a job which I deemed to be challenging and engaging enough to build my career on).

Personal growth- I have made up my mind to learn malay. Will start learning 1 or 2 months into my working life. As for the fourth language, the allure and practicality of spanish still dominates, but I may instead choose to learn a regional language should proficiency in it be required for my job. For now, the desire to be multi-lingual dominates my future plans.

Yuppies life- I want my car. (Will get my car sooner than later, probably in the very near future, if everything goes well). My friends are already planning overseas trips, 1 to Thailand in October, another to Taiwan in February, but nothing is confirmed of course...one thing is for sure though, before this chapter closes, I will make my pilgrimage to the holy place- OLD TRAFFORD!! LOL! Once, I start earning money, I will have the ability to indulge in plays/musicals/concerts! yay! I'm starting to sound like a spendthrift already, but I have decided to really enjoy life in the first year of working and saving up for the future after the first year. :)

I am going to be a YUPPIE soon!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

gems of wisdom

I realized I have to post these words of wisdom from my dearest and favorite prof ever and imprint it onto my blog for eternity. Courtesy of Meiling's blog(as my favorite prof only sent this e-mail to the students taking his module-which I took in yr 3)-

Dear students

As most of you will be switching gears from study desks and library hideouts to corporate responsibilities and civil service appointments, I feel it necessary to share this nugget of revelation with you concerning globalization and the pending demands of the borderless workplace in Singapore. It also ties in with the NTUC Chief’s comments on May Day.

The occasion was the launch of a new Asia-Europe Foundation publication ‘EU- Looking through the Eyes of Asia’ on 18 April. A panel discussion was held and the speakers included an important editor from Reuters, a representative from NUS’ EU Studies programme, and the chair of the European Chamber of Commerce of Singapore who turned out to be a German national overseeing a particular European MNC’s operations throughout East Asia. I posed a question about whether the EU’s image deficit could have been usefully addressed by picking lessons from Bollywood’s soft power; the export of Japanese Anime and K-pop; Chinese cultural soft power in music and dramas etc.; and the hiring of more Asian journalists in Reuters’ Asia operations. Both the Reuters representative and the EU Studies academic responded positively to say that yes there were lessons to be shared between the two regions on building constructive images. The Chair of the European Chamber of Commerce, seized the opportunity to draw attention to the fact that Singaporean graduates were becoming more uncompetitive when it comes to hiring for senior management in European MNCs expanding into Asia because of two reasons. First, Singaporeans were losing their drive and hunger for experience, and innovation. Second, Singaporean workers were becoming inadequate bridges into the Chinese corporate world: Singaporeans spoke ‘kitchen Mandarin’ and shied away from aggressively networking through Guanxi. Instead mainland Chinese professionals were willing to learn and better themselves, and were striving to improve their English proficiency.

As a Singaporean, I was hurt by his dire depiction. As an appraiser of knowledge striving to be objective, as far as it is reasonably possible, I believe lessons can be drawn on the challenges and pitfalls of globalization. On the positive side, one does not need to resort to defensive nationalism to respond to the European mercantile elite. I hope this revelation of an elite view will spur all of you on to reverse this image. ‘Singapore Inc’ as a world leader in skills and proficiency still remains to be consolidated. I hope that the intangible skills you have picked up at NUS will inspire you to become larger human beings and knowledge analysts than merely being a possessor of an Honours degree. Furthermore, the potential of globalization to help or damage the fortunes of a ‘weak state’ depends so much on the initiative of human endeavour.

I hope that the next time I meet all of you, you will have found your watermark in your diverse career paths.

Very best wishes for a great start to the working world,

ALAN CHONG

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Thanks, Prof. Your words struck a chord in the minds and hearts of us who were privileged to be taught by you. I will always remember your words of advice which you shared selflessly on issues that you taught and precious life lessons. You are one of the main reasons why I will never regret making political science my major.

The time to leave the sanctuary of school is near. Its time to embark on an enriching career and make a mark on society. The sky is the limit! and...of cos, a yuppies' life awaits. :p

Friday, April 11, 2008

an eventful week

Many things happened this week. Good things, bad things.......

Bad things

I forgot an angel's birthday. How did this happen? It should never be allowed to happen. Taking her for granted is such a cardinal sin that I should not commit.

Meiling sms-ed me, 'have you forgotten about me! :(' haiz, guilty again. The first excuse is the mad rush for that dreaded honours thesis. But upon reflection, I have only met her once for lunch since she graduated last semester. I do miss the days when I spent 99percent of time in school with my ps clique- Meiling, Zheyuan, Heyi and Hong. Yet, I'm not making enough effort to keep this friendship going. Wake up, Yanwei!

I need a shoebag. That prevented me from going to gym after my test at mica this monday. What a lousy excuse. Haiz, Only jogged one time this week. Need to kickstart the exercise regime again(never intensive but, enough to feel healthy and keep my weight in check).

I missed Fatma and Nab's presentation this thursday. A presentation that I was really looking forward to. For, gender issue is quite touchy for a 'mcp' like me. A gender minor like Fatma and cute Nab's presentation(have never seen Nab present b4! argh) must have been a real experience. lol. Yet,the sleep after the man u match was too sweet to wake up from.

I flunked my makeup brief HISTORY of science test today. A breadth module. But its HISTORY. It should be my forte. Pure memorization yet, my mind went blank and the questions was obscure enough to send a blank mind to hell. Flunking this test means a B+ is all that I can aim for. This means that a maximum last minute effort is likely to result in a B grade. ARGH. CRAP. This is HISTORY. SIGHZ. ITS MY FORTE. I don't care if its about science. It can be about art/music for all I care. I swear I will put in that last ounce of effort to make up for this disaster.

Good things

I watched Romance of Three Kingdoms, the movie installment on Zhao Zhilong. Yes, its nowhere near the accuracy of the novel/history but it still brought a lot of satisfaction watching my favorite general on the big screen.

I beat Zheyuan 5-4 in pool games AGAIN. haha, winning when defeat stares you in the eye always gives you the feel-good feeling.

Manchester United beat Roma 1-0 on the night! More importantly, Gary Neville is back. And the ovation he received brought a tear to my eye. Its great to see him back after such a long absence. Welcome back, my dear captain!

I finally met Zhixiang at the honours room just now. After promising to find him there for the whole sem. Had a good dinner with him and Weizan. Then also, spend a bit of time mingling with other PS peers, such as Alene and Shawn at the honours room. With graduation on the horizon, its a nice feeling to just chat and mingle with some of my peers.

Things are rosy on the job front. No, I am resigned to my failure to get into MFA, but its likely that I will get my next best option again. YAY.(ok, maybe I'm not that joyous, but it always feel good to know you have 'market value'.)

The possibility of ace-ing Theories of IR module is exceedingly high. I got an A- for the 25percent test, an A for the discussant session (10percent) and I am geniunely enjoying the class participation (40percent), speaking up and writing in the online forum not out of necessity but out of interest. I'm not even lost in that module anymore. I'm confident of ace-ing this module. :)

Such a mixed week. Next week? Issues of SEA paper is the main agenda. I cannot afford to screw up a 40 percent paper.