Another rollercoaster day

A routine rollercoaster day

I exchanged sms-es with her in the afternoon, I was elated, things seemed to be going well again.

I exchanged sms-es with her in the evening, reality came back to haunt, I got very down and felt helpless.

I exchanged sms-es with her at night, all seemed to be well again, I was feeling normal.


Everyday, I look forward to her sms-ing me so I can know how she's feeling and yet..on the back of my mind, I have this nagging thought, a most rational judgement, that I'm just someone who she knows that will be there for her, who will offer her words of comfort, who will show her lots of care and concern but not someone she likes/loves.

I don't mind the fact that I am that someone because I like her. I want her to be happy. I want to see her smile always. I want to share her problems and her sorrows. But this is a dangerous route that I am trekking on. I feel helpless when I can't cheer her up. My heart really hurts when she tells me she's down becos she misses someone.( happens again and again)

I hope she will be happy tmr. May God bless her and may she get well soon!~



* Be strong, becos she needs you even if she dun like you.