Contented....

In life, the most difficult thing is to be contented. At least that's where I always have difficulty in. In relation to my pragmatic goals in life, I still need to find the balance, find the ability to be contented with what I achieve. From a below expectation O-level results to a 2nd upper class honours range to a fantastic testimonial for my internship, I always feel that I could have done better. In a perfect world, I will have entered Temasek JC, in the first class range and get the coveted good intern award(3 out of 69 interns got it). However, the world isn't perfect and I ought to pat myself on the back n tell myself, "Yanwei, you have tried your best, well done." Slowly, I have learnt to be contented, though I will still try my best to achieve my goals, I will not be so hard on myself when I don't meet my goals.

"Aim for the moon, drop amongst the stars" A philosophy that I have followed since JC, my close friend told me, " Yanwei, there's no stars for me". I agreed then..deep down, I know I may not be able to achieve my dreams but I know I will still be doing very well in life. I have faith and I need to be contented.

With relations to the matters of the heart though, a totally different person appears. I have learnt not to expect too much. I have always been contented with the little joys that appears in this aspect of my life. The more one expects, the more hurt one will get. In an area that I seem to have less control in, I am thankful for all the joys and I have learnt to be contented, to bask in the happiness when its there, to cope with the pain when it appears. Right now, I'm happy and I hope this happiness will last a slightly longer time before it is overtaken by pain again. I hope...