Its my choice.

Its my choice.

Its my choice to carry on caring for her, going out with her and be there for her when she need me.
Its my choice to be receptive to her sms-es, to want to meet her and to want to see her.
Its my choice to want to know her better, to risk liking her even more and to be a lot more hurt in future.

Its my fault

Its my fault that I chose to listen to my heart instead of listening to my head in this seemingly impossible dream.
Its my fault for choosing to go through this emotional rollercoaster when I have a choice to pull out of it right from the start.
Its my fault to make my friends share my sorrows and worry about me when I get all down and sad.

Around ten years ago, I made a choice(wholly different one) and I hurt the one I love. It was totally my fault back then. It remains my biggest regret to date. Perhaps, things have come a full circle. Now, I will be hurt by someone I like and may eventually come to love(fingers crossed, it don't happen) and this hurt will be as deep if not deeper than the hurt I have caused to that angel in the past.

Its my choice, its my fault. Its my time to be hurt.