closure...

Her,
hi, Yanwei. I'm sorry to have to say this to u, but think we shouldn't care for each other anymore. It kinda affects me. yeah, hope u'd understand. take care.

A sms, an enforced outcome, a decision taken and an end. Sighz..now I can't even care for her as a friend, that really hurt....my heart is actually having this piercing pain that I have never experienced in my life...it pains me so much to not be able to care anymore, to control myself from sms-ing her again, to stop myself from caring, to stop myself from wanting to care..can I really not care anymore? I don't even have that option avaliable to contemplate the possibility of failing to achieve that.

I guess we can't even be friends anymore, I guess I will never hear from her again. She changed her blog address 3 weeks back when it was over, now I have changed my blog address becos we can't even be friends anymore.

I always knew that the person who can cause you the most hurt, conversely can bring you the most joys too. Guess, this is the last time that she will cause any more hurt in my life. Guess, this is the last phase of the recovery process that I have to go through. A phase that I didnt expect to go through..the reality of not even having her as a friend and not been able to care anymore.

Sighz..why must it hurt so much? I am still unable to delete her sms-es and her photos from my phone..maybe I can do it months from now when I have finally recovered...yet I hope I can don't do that because those were the only things that can still remind me about her and memories are things that others can't take away.